Crystalclear..with(out) fear
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I did find this article I wrote a few years ago..and it is still very accurate today
Let’s talk about fear..
I would never have thought I would ever say this.. but my biggest lessons came ( and come) through fear. Without my fear, I would not be the same person I am right now. Not fearless.. no.. but willing to face my fear, see what the message is for me at that moment.
Fear has shown me an unbelievable lot of power. All the energy I used against mySelf, I started more and more, to use for mySelf.
When I look back at my life, I see a lot of fear. I have been afraid of almost everything.
It was later in life, I discovered that all the fear I had, came from one source.
My fear of just being mySelf, fear of my own Being. The fear of who I really am. Fear to live. To truly believe in mySelf. Instead I rather stayed “dead”, asleep in mySelf.
Step by Step I did get out of that. I woke up. I wanted to be alive, not the image from who I was, but really who I knew was under those masks. I wanted to show the real me. The one who was hidden there for so long inside of me. This has cost me a lot of battles in myself, my family, my friends. I had to let go, to find myself.
That process goes on and on, never stops.
For a long time, I did not know what my purpose was here on earth.
“What on earth am I doing here” was more my line.
Slowly I started to realize, that I was here for all the things I was already doing.. dis-covering mySelf. Waking up, after long times of having been asleep. Asleep in mySelf. Letting others tell me what was good for, how I should be, how life supposed to be.
By taking control over my own life, I did start to let the control go.
We all have gotten stuck in old believe systems which have created different persons as who we really are inside. The outside has gotten more and more important.
Believe systems which tell us how we have to be, to live, to run our life. Not to show us how to be happy with ourselves, to use our full potentials. Instead they show us more how to survive, being satisfied which a life which is not for-filling anymore. Keep quite.
No one has really that power over you. It is always you yourself who makes the decision to keep it like it is.. or to start change and life the life you had in mind all along.
This world runs on “good and bad” not how it just IS. To keep on believing that there is such a thing as “good and bad” will keep yourSelf locked up. Too afraid to make mistakes. While those “mistakes” only show you that you have a choice to do it different the next time.
All of this has also to do with fear. By recognizing your own fear, you take the first step.. to become crystal-clear in yourSelf
Our true self is inside of us. Our true colors. Our emotions, our fears, our love. There is a lot more YOU then you realize.
Live your life to the fullest of your own potentials. Let fear be your guide to show you not to be afraid anymore.
Maybe also you are only afraid for who you really are.
With love
Ellen Jacover