The Essence is You

Out of the Box

admin — Mon, 07 Nov 2011 15:09:10 +0000

I just really love this painting
It is very fresh and open
It does invite to think out of the box
To go out of your comfort zone
Creating it sure did that to me

The Essence is you

admin — Mon, 31 Oct 2011 15:42:48 +0000

The Essence is you
I am really very happy with this new painting.
It is bright and sunny, down to the ground with a connection to the universe
I see angels, fire, pyramid and of course the leave. This is a real leave, dried and gluwed on the canvas.
I have used acrylic paint and pastels, paper, glitter and my own imagination.
The seize is: 1m/130

Primrose

admin — Fri, 28 Oct 2011 21:05:36 +0000

I have been on the net today, searching for pictures and I saw so many beautiful ones, just have to share one.

This is primrose, it is one of the dutch floweressences.

Mastery

admin — Tue, 25 Oct 2011 14:10:22 +0000

On of my latest painting.

I called it ” Mastery” because I had the urge to put all those master-numbers on it.

777-777-888-111

I have been looking on the internet and found this information:

Masternumbers

I am getting a big applause from the angels according to all the 777

Holly…and jealousy

admin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 15:08:28 +0000

Writing this atory sure did come on a bumpy road :-).
All because of the subject “Thinking I have to prove myself” with feelings of jalousie and anger. I just could not put my finger on it..what was going on? I was doing so fine, did just start this fine blog, renewed my website and I started writing this articles for a dutch e-newspaper ”Spiritueel Enzo” ( www.spritueelenzo.nl ) People react very enthousiasticly on this and I really love doing it. So..no reason for comparing or getting myself down you would think!
But..those articles..they almost come “by itself”. I did not really have to do much for it..and I do get all those compliments! That cannot be right…can it..? So.. well..my subconscious started drastically to look for all kind of reasons why “easy” was really not alright! Are you crazy...life should be tough! Otherwise…my old pattern ” I have to proof myself I am good enough” would be out of a job!..Tssss..old patterns without a job..they start to give hammock .

So unconsciously I started to sabotage myself again. Like with writing this aricle…sentences which did not flow right, subjects which I made more heavy as necessary etc. I did start to compare myself with others who seemingly could write everything they wanted..without any trouble. Tss…the circle was round again. I did add jealously to this soup and off course also anger, because it did not go the way I wanted it to go

And this is how we end up with Holly.
Holly ( bachremedies)has everything to do with this pattern. Anger and being jealous, comparing with others, angry some else is doing something better, more easily, has just that..what you want TOO etc. The biggest one is still to come..judgment on all those feelings.
Because all those feelings…are not done in our “society” . Who shows to much anger….aiaiaia..that’s a bad one. You better stay away from her/him. Or when children are jealous of each other, they are taught very quickly that is not o.k. to be, to feel like that. Because it does not fit in the ideal looking picture we have created for ourselves. Play nicely….that’s the right way to be.
This way it can happen that you will do anything to proof yourself and others that you ARE a good person..that you ARE good enough to be loved. This can often give a complete different picture of how you really are. After a while..you do not see anymore..that all that time you where already perfect , just the way you are. Also being angry or jealous. It is just a part of being human.

By ignoring such strong feelings for a long time, pressure can build up till a point it just want to be let out. When that is not possible..it just build up more and more..the balance is really gone.
When you notice with yourself that you have trouble with this kind of feelings as anger and jealously, maybe Holly from the bachremedies can help you in this.
Both emotions( and every other emotion as well) are nothing more as what they are..just an emotion. Emotions are a perfect way to show us, what we are running into.

An emotion is the wave in the water and the water has its own rhythm with the ties and the moon. All what is a part of us, all is reflected in the water. Everything is allowed to be the way it is.
So jealous?? O.k…that is a part of me too. What is this trying to tell me now?? Oh..I am a little uncertain about myself? Or maybe I think I am not as good as everybody else?? o.k…I got the message, it is not true.. because I am good enough, the way I am.

Someone once told me ” You do not have to proof yourself, because you ARE already a fine human being” That line comes back to me every now and then and in this kind of situations it is pretty handy

Have a very nice day!

Ellen

And do not forget….you are allowed to be who you are..RIGHT NOW..so also your old patterns are o.k. to be here. You do not have to be able to do everything suddenly ”right”, it is a process. It is called life.
Every insight, gives a new change to choose what you want right now, who you want to be right now.

xxxx

Sweet Chestnut and disconnected

admin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 15:05:34 +0000

Just like that it can happen to me again…I can get overwhelmed by a feeling of deep loneliness. In the past I did not understand any of this and it could take a long time before I did get out of that deep, black hole. Now this is totally different. I recognize what is happening much quicker, see the red line between my thinking and actions and a lot of time I can switch the button pretty quickly again. Thank God for grow

So a few days ago..It was one of those days again I cannot always find a cause for this right away and that is also not really necessary most of the times.
This feeling is a part of me too. It is showing me smething about me, about how my thinking is going, what I am creating for myself.
The feeling of loneliness for me is like if I am not really connected with anyone, if I do not really belong.
I know a lot of people will recognize this feeling. Feeling lonely, just like that. While all is there. Can make it even more confusing as it already is!
In the past I did not quit know how to handle this and I tried to fill this hole inside me, with what ever seemed to do the trick..smoking, drinking, food etc. As long as I did not have to feel like that, I used it.
Now I know, I am just out of touch with myself for while. Do not really listen to myself and lose track.
I was maybe hiding behind myself or behind someone else and I did not show myself as I really was. That can give loneliness. I do expieirence this as loneliness because I disconnect myself from the flow that connects me with all there is. The flow with myself.Sweet Chestnut of the bachremedies shows this mirror. Sometimes it is called “The loneliness of the soul” and I can relate to that. When you do not feel the connection with yourself, with your soul, (while that connection is always there!) it can be pretty lonely.
It ask for courage to look in that mirror. To look yourself into the eyes and say ” I love you, just the way you are. You are allowed to be who you are completely”

I have a special place in my heart for Sweet Chestnut. This remedy has helped me a lot. especially to allow myself to let the tears flow and that everything is o.k. the way it is.

Someone once told me ” You are never alone, you always are with yourself” and for me that is true.

You are never alone…you are all-in-one

I think it is a nice one”

have a beautiful day!

Ellen

Walnut and changes

admin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 15:00:00 +0000

I see it everywhere around me, lost of changes. If there is some kind of energy doodling around which pronounces….it is time…time for different steps.., handling things in a different way, really going for something what was already hanging in the air..etc etc

In my life, for example..I was a enthusiastic member of a (dutch) message-board. The goal of this board has been all the time: getting the best out of yourself. Together we shared our lives, our thoughts, emotions, the good and the bad.
I have shared, given, received and learned a lot there. Suddenly it was time to stop. It did not feel right anymore, it was for a long time my outlet, my safe place on the internet, but now it was time to go.
I took me some time to really express myself in this, first to myself and then to the others, but when I finally had done that..what a relieve! It felt great. I also was not the only one. Others started talking about it too and then things went real quick. After 11 years, the whole message-board was going to stop! It was a very emotional time. All kind of emotions went trough me and the others of this special board. We shared till the last day and stopped with a lot of laughter.
But also I was sad to say goodbye.I have spend a lot of time and energy on this message-board and that was all going away. The deep closeness with the people would not be there in this way anymore. Not in this setting.
All good things..I knew I was going to get a lot of new space with this ending…but wel..you know what you got..you do not know how it is going to be
And now it is good. It really is good. I am looking forward to all the new things which will come my way. I am the creator…so..It is all up to me:-)

Walnut is very good for this kind of situations. It helps to really stay connected with your own feelings, stick to what you really want and don’t go (again) with the opinions ( how well meant they can be!) of others, but follow your own heart and intuition.
Because when you have decided something for yourself..others will most likely come with their own ideas, how they would do it etc and “Are you sure….??”" Should you really do this..??” etc.
When you are not standing very strong in your own shoes..it can be tempting to stay in a situation of which you deep down already know..I do not want this anymore.
So Walnut helps in any kind of period of change. It can help to smooth this time a little.

The following combination had helped me several times in my live:

Honeysuckle (to leave the past in the past)
Walnut (for every situation of change)
Star of Bethlehem (to let the emotions flow, so you do not stay stuck in them)

I do wish you a very nice time

Times are very challenging, that’s for sure

Do not forget…you do it all yourself..but you do not have to do this all by yourself

Crab Apple and perfection

admin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 14:38:29 +0000

Crab Apple is one of the 38 bachremedies, developed by Dr. Bach

Anything else I did miss???

Sometimes I look like a cookie-monster…..the only different is..I am not looking for more cookies..I look for more mistakes I can lay my eye on guess what..I always will find some!
I can laugh about it now, ( not always ;-)) but I can assure you: this little “monster” has made my life pretty miserable for a long time! But now I know his tricks, that makes a lot of different.
When I am in the middle of it once again, I compare it with someone with a very long neck…who likes to look at everything very precisely…to be sure, no mistakes stay unseen

Basically all it is, is still believing in a system of “good and bad” This is how we are raised….like “this you do right!..this you do wrong!”So it became more important to pay attention to the things you did “wrong” because..well….that was not good off course

Those where different days. More and more we are getting conscious about who we are. More aware of how we hold on to the judgement of “good and bad” “right or wrong”

The impulse to let the attention go to all what is NOT going right..I think everyone knows what I am talking about. And…NOW we also know..Where you put your attention…will grow….or at least it will seem bigger as it is.

Realizing there is nothing right or wrong can make life a lot easier. Lighter..

I am still working on it

So how can we change this behavior..?

Redirect your attention to all the things in your life you are grateful for…this immediately can help to restore the balance again. It works very well for me. Not to get writ of the “bad” things, no. There is no such thing as a bad thing. The way I see it is not about seeing the things you do “wrong” no, it is all about accept all as part of yourself. No one can tell you what you feel is wrong!

You cannot recognize light, without dark. It is as simple as that. Does not make dark more wrong..or light better..no..it is just dark..or light..that’s all. So we can choose…choose how we like it.

Everything you did..you did out of the knowledge you had at that moment. So how can that be wrong??

Everything we do..it is all about the experiences, that why we are here on planet earth. To experience who we are.

Everyone for example makes decisions which do not have the result as hoped. So What??? We all have the freedom to choose different again. We can stare at all those minus-points of ourselves…but does that makes us more happy?? I do not think so.

Physical this pattern can show itself as just staring at that ONE little pimple..and not see anymore how beautiful you are for the rest. The attention stays at that pimple and…the same pimple will seem bigger and bigger every minute.

You also can think..I have a pimple..SO What???!

Crab Apple is a bach-remedy and the main-aspect is: paying attention to things which are nor going well, or do not look so good.

My own red line trough life has everything to do with this. Years ago a friend of mine saw right away that Crab Apple is one of the remedies I could use a lot in this lifetime and she was right. Crab Apple and Rock-water ( the remedy about being to hard on yourself) I both used a lot. On all levels this was and is embedded in me, so deeper and deeper I can go..to transform on all levels of myself.

Crab Apple is also very good to add to your bath. It clears the inside as well the outside very well.

Also when you just have a sensation of feeling dirty, crabapple is the one to use.

Focus your attention on the things you like, the things which make you happy. Listening to music you like for example are all very good way’s to step out of this old pattern and enjoy your life the way it IS, not how you think it should be.

It is so important, for all of us, to realize we are very special. No exceptions. Special the way we ARE.

I hope you will have a very nice time, being you

xxx

Ellen

Awareness of what you eat

admin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 12:20:14 +0000

Awareness of what you eat..

When you read the news-papers or watch the news..you would think it is almost impossible to eat anything anymore.
Vegatables which are “sick” or making us sick…

I can almost see it infront of me…..the veggies who start to complain about how they are treated, maybe they also like to go back to who they really are :-)
I can understand that they get weaker and weaker because of all the manipulation and unnatural grow they have to endure.

Does not make them bad…no..it is all like in ourselves..the further away you are from yourself, the weaker you can become and the more your body is trying to help you getting stronger again by showing your “weaknesses” through sickness.

The day you do not get sick anymore..the day your body is to weak to give you the signals..then you are in more trouble

For example you eat something what is not real good for you..you body starts to react on this by trowing up, giving you diarrhea and we think..om my God..I am sick! and we start to put all kind of things in our body to make it “better” again.

Most of the time by giving it a little time, your body will sort it all out by itself. You can also give yourself the chance to try to read ìnto the message, the reason in the first place why you did get this upsets of the stomach or guts. Are you just swallowing everything you hear? Or when you feel something is not o.k for you…you still go on which what you are doing? You body will always try to help you to see how you are behaving to yourself and others. That’s what bodies do.

So even when people get sick from eating cucumbers..:-) in my opinion it is nothing more then the body is giving a signal that something is out of balance in their system.
And when more people at the same time getting this..it will get more attention and everything what is getting your attention…has also something to tell you about yourself.

Are you going into the fear which is spread around for example? Or can you stay in your trust, that nothing happens without a reason. That all really is happening in the right time, in the right place.

I can imaging that this whole cucumber-thing what did go on for some time, was also meant to get people really more aware of what they are eating and also what they are swallowing. Literally and spiritually/mentally.

Stay strong in yourself, believe you body is strong and can handle a lot more as what you are aware of. Treat you body with love and care and it will do the same for you.

Have a nice day!

Love

Ellen

I am having salad tonight ;-)

Our body is changing

admin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 12:03:40 +0000

When you experience all kind of symptoms and you do not really know what they mean..doctors cannot find anything really wrong with you..you most likely have “ascension-symptoms”
We are all going into a higher vibration. Our bodies need major adjustments for this.
We leave the old behind, energies which where stuck for long times are being released. This can give a lot of discomfort.
Try to accept things the way they are…you are doing perfectly well!
For me my lungs had several intense clean-ups, I have had and still have stiffness in my knuckles, weight-gain..my thyroid helped me to slow down and enjoy the ride more.
I always was pretty slim, but those days are definitely over ;-) It took me a while to accept my body the way it is and wel..still can have that. But is does help me to stay grounded in all this! And that can make me grateful too.
It does ask trust that all this is really happening for a reason and that on an other level we have really asked to be here and having all these experiences.

Karen Bishop did put together a list of the most common “ascension-symptons”ones..but the list is much longer, because everybody reacts in his or hers own way. I do know many of them…for example…forgetfullness..have my little list ready..to forget it again ;-) it is o.k. really..you get used to it.

Enjoy the ride!!

Love

Ellen

Here is what I found on the internet: I know this information is also in one of her books..but I do not know which one anymore.

Presented By Karen Bishop:Know that although our evolutionary process is rapidly accelerating, along with the New higher energies, we are all experiencing these changes in our own way and in our own time, according to who we are and according to our coding and plan before birth.
In addition, generally speaking, our ascension process relates to how we each run our own individual energy, and what our beliefs and experiences are. In other words, how we are wired and how we vibrate.
These things can be changed and will also change automatically as we clear and embody more light within ourselves.
For me, all of my interesting and ‘strange’ symptoms disappeared after I completely ‘arrived’ in a higher realm; and they will for you as well. These symptoms seem to occur while we are going through the transition, or what I liken to the ‘tunnel’.
Know that there is an end, and an incredibly beautiful, peaceful and loved filled reality awaiting you. May your evolutionary process be joyous, peaceful and filled with light and wonder.1. Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy; feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviours and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you.
2. A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.
3. Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D, while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.
4. Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can’t be there for long lengths of time and need a break. This is also the ‘cleansing and releasing’ hour.
5. Memory loss. A great abundance of short term memory loss and only vague remembrances of your past. You are in more than one dimension at a time, and going back and forth as part of the transition, you are experiencing a ‘disconnect’. Also, your past is part of the Old, and the Old is forever gone. Being in the Now is the way of the New World.
6. ‘Seeing’ and ‘hearing’ things. You are experiencing different dimensions as you transition, all according to how sensitive you are and how you are wired.
7. Loss of identity. You try to access the Old you, but it is no longer there. You may not know who you are looking at in the mirror. You have cleared much of your old patterns and are now embodying much more light and a simpler, more purified divine you. All is in order, You are okay.
8. Feeling ‘out of body’. You may feel as though someone is talking, but it is not you. This is our natural defence mechanism of survival when we are under acute stress or feeling traumatized or out of control. Your body is going through a lot and you may not want to be in it. My ascension guide told me that this was a way of easing the transition process, and that I did not need to experience what my body was going through. This only lasted a short time. It passes.
9. Periods of deep sleeping. You are resting from all the acclimating and are integrating, as well as building up for the next phase.
10. Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulations are barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up. Know that this will eventually pass.
11. You don’t feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period, ‘rebooting’. Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, ‘doing’ and ‘making things happen’ becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to ‘bring’ you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun.
12. An intolerance for lower vibrational things of the 3D, reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc. They literally make you feel ‘sick’ inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being ‘pushed, to move forward; to ‘be’ and create the New.
13. A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore in the Old.
14. A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.
15. You absolutely cannot do certain things anymore. When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.
16. Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.
17. A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain, especially in the abdominal area. A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inability to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.
18. Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we are releasing a lot.
19. A wanting to go Home, as if everything is over and you don’t belong here anymore. We are returning to Source. Everything is over, but many of us are staying to experience and create the New World. Also, our old plans for coming have been completed.
20. Feeling you are going insane, or must be developing a mental illness of some sort. You are rapidly experiencing several dimensions and greatly opening. Much is available to you now. You are just not used to it. Your awareness has been heightened and your barriers are gone. This will pass and you will eventually feel very at Home like you have never felt before, as Home is now here.
21. Anxiety and panic. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behaviour patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviours you are losing are not needed in the higher realms. This will pass and you will eventually feel so much love, safety and unity. Just wait.
22. Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn’t feel so good out there. You are also releasing lower, darker energies and you are ‘seeing’ through them. Hang in there.
23. Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams. Your dream state will eventually improve and you will enjoy it again. Some experience this releasing while awake. My mother commented one day that she believed I was having nightmares in the daytime.
24. Night sweats and hot flashes. Your body is ‘heating’ up as it burns off residue.
25. Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels great in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do. It is breaking your ‘rut’ choices and vibration.
26. You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many ‘worst nightmare’ aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into ‘stretching’ into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into ‘toning down’ aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself. This is your journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren’t ready. You are the one who finds your way out and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experience and be a different person.Universal Copyright (2003) is authorized here.
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